I work all day

I just got tired of being mediocre. I want to become extraordinary.

I can't understand how people can just live like they do.

Let's pretend...

That I lived a very good life.
I also had the time of my life and loved every single second of it
I never struggled and things just went so well
I got a content job 9 to 5 and had enough money for my lifetime

I followed whatever people told me and never hated the things that hurt me
I never searched what I loved and just did everything that everybody else did because I wanted to be just like them.

I never went to answer my problems and let them consume me
I didn't try different things to find out what made me truly happy
Instead I just did the things I liked doing whenever I felt sad
and never pondered what could be different and never sought solutions
but temporary escapism
but its okay because now I have so much money to do whatever I wanted
Money that would save me from boredom and occupy my time with fun and leisure

I was living a perfect life.

The me that's living that life I wish you well, but I'm so sorry you're so unfortunate.

Perfect is poop.

If I wait for my hand to catch up to my eye..
if I didn't move until it got here then I'm dead.

They'll follow you

You can't wait for mastery to move on.
There's a point where you'll know enough.

Wait for Mastery and you're stuck

Punch past the wooden plank

my biggest influence is really video games

2 sides of the same coin... I call tails.
 so...
we're all just different sides of the same d20.......
some people are 1s though...that sucks... HAHAH

I'm pretty sure I'm a nat 20

its very difficult for me..

I hate to admit but I spend more time thinking about how terrible i am at drawing than i actually draw.. i mean i eventually keep drawing but i beat myself a lot
hang in there

1st year as an artist. my influence map and 4 things I did right...?

 

Things I felt I did right:

1. exploring different tools to find the ones that worked with me.

I bought and tried a lot of different pencils, pens, ink, dip pens, markers, colored pencils, a tablet, etc.
By doing this I have found the pencils, pens, methods and other things that I feel creates the most synergy with me and my art. I think its important to know that I found one of the pens I use everyday in the most unlikely way.
 I feel it is important for an artist to find the tools they are most comfortable with. that is just one of the few steps that helps prevent distraction from creativity. however i will admit that although i did this step very early in my endeavor, others may take their time finding their preferred tools. that is because all you really need is a pencil.

2. looking at artists I admired as inspiration frequently.

I often tried to mimic a lot of other artists because I knew their style was close to something I hoped to draw like one day. this is a great way to find out how to push reality to how you want it and bounce ideas for the future. I collected images online and own a lot of art books of artists I really look up to. I also follow them on their sites because I'm just a creeper. Looking at a lot of different inspirations helps supplement your life studies with a lot of ideas.

3. i drew everyday

My worst days all i drew were shapes... but thats still ok
as long as you get into the habit of drawing everyday youre one step closer for it to become second nature.. and thats what i want. you have to drill into your mind that you must have your pen touch the paper... or else itll be weird.

4. i studied from real life

I often see some young artists... if they wanted to just draw anime, all they did was draw anime.
but not only that, they would try to learn from images of just anime. while i did say i copied from other artists, anime, and other art as well, learning solely from just that one thing can cripple a beginner. in my opinion that was something that happened to me from experience. a  lot of artists get disappointed when their picture looks off when they try to study from anime
then you have to realize, all art just stems from real life, including anime.

its not often said, but there is logic to drawing
drawing is not art
drawing is actually a science, its a class, its a skill just like everything else that takes years and years of studying
drawing is a skill
a skill to make art
once you learn some things then you bridge the gap and use drawing to make art

think of any possible drawing skill you need and your answer lies irl

Loomis reminds us

The layman does not need to know anything of art to know whether he likes your work or not.
-Andrew "LOOMIS" Loomis

things i didnt think i'd get into when i started drawing

comic books

autobiographies

history books

mythologies

stickers

holy shit stickers