I work all day

I just got tired of being mediocre. I want to become extraordinary.

I can't understand how people can just live like they do.

Let's pretend...

That I lived a very good life.
I also had the time of my life and loved every single second of it
I never struggled and things just went so well
I got a content job 9 to 5 and had enough money for my lifetime

I followed whatever people told me and never hated the things that hurt me
I never searched what I loved and just did everything that everybody else did because I wanted to be just like them.

I never went to answer my problems and let them consume me
I didn't try different things to find out what made me truly happy
Instead I just did the things I liked doing whenever I felt sad
and never pondered what could be different and never sought solutions
but temporary escapism
but its okay because now I have so much money to do whatever I wanted
Money that would save me from boredom and occupy my time with fun and leisure

I was living a perfect life.

The me that's living that life I wish you well, but I'm so sorry you're so unfortunate.