Discipline.

Discipline is the very opposite definition of fun.


I've been slowly trying to get into a working schedule.
I have succeeded. but. I need to get into becoming a working artist sooner.
I am not putting in enough time and I am being distracted way too much still.
So starting tomorrow I will be harsher to myself in that regard.

A Pep Talk from Kid President to You

2014-2016~

I've learned more about myself these past 2 years than I ever have the other 20.

I feel like thats what happens when you have less stress from things like work and school.
A new brand new stress... did not come, it was probably there to begin with. but. it becomes more apparent when everything else slowly calms down.

It felt like the inner being or source of all stress. I guess I just discovered mine late? who knows.
Fighting isn't the right word... tackling? Tackling that stress is probably the most difficult thing I've done, because it doesn't really go away. There's a lot of things people can do with this stress. I've decided to befriend it. I feel like... neglecting it makes it turn into a beast. When the beast is ignored it becomes wild and scary. If you befriend it, it can become a very powerful ally in life.

We all have to live through the sodomy.
We just want our wick to shine and gleam.
Some stay loud through the dark pouring rain.
The other ones cover their eyes.
Tomorrow's day, Then the next.
Varied or Constant.
Realize we're never that person ever again.
Who... was that?
Probably just... another remnant. Thank you for your hard work.
I'll let the others know. I promise.


In a way that makes more sense to more people.
I never had the chance to think what I really wanted for myself. but now that I do I know exactly where I want to be.
With full fledged confidence I can say I'm an artist first and foremost.
My weakness right now is I know myself very well, but. I don't know other people. 

vilppu says some shit

No one is really interested in seeing cylinders, ellipses, boxes, etc. What we want to see is what you have to say about your subject. Do not confuse the method with the message.

tl;dr Never Forget.

Things I've probably said before

You had to be there to get here.

You'll wish you knew something way back when, that's just how it will always be.

Your hands and eyes are two best friends that often get into fights, but they make up with each other if they just apologize.

Artist shit

Two most important tools.
Eyes
Hands

You train your eyes to see
You train your hand to match your eye
For me my hand has a lot of catching up to do.

Things I hate to say outloud about myself

Get distracted a lot.
Love just watching the sky.
Can't concentrate on what friends say, mind defaults back to career, so am probably thinking about that if wondering.
Consider presence pretty useless to friends. Much rather use skills to make something for them. Skills are strongest asset. Do know that being with friends is very important because its a good break from the stress and raises spirits and creativity.

Hate who I used to be but love who I am now. Considered quiet because words are useless, would rather use action to talk, however subtle. Can't make people like someone or something, can only be yourself. In the end doesn't matter. In the end there is the decent and the indecent. Love makes love and hate makes hate. Others need to learn to take "good" and "bad". Yin Yang.

Very bad liar. Strategy-based. Very hard to make something look unintentional when everything is carefully decided. Everything not placed by accident. Bad habit.

Few people exist who really adore me. Too much. Don't know why.

Just want to see the best come out of people.

Remember the common denominator.

There is hate, but understand. Not their fault. Never their fault.

Everyone does not _______________________ for each other enough. If we can do that, you can achieve our greatest selves.